An extension of emotions, one of the many vessels to manifest thought patterns. Like music, it is a very powerful medium for releasing my inner demons or angels, depending on who whispered first. Don’t worry, you’ll easily decipher who’s who upon reading, but don’t blame me for who you might summon. My hands are tied on that one so be careful. Meanwhile, cruise my mind.
A Dance in Silence
After Heaven, Where?
Angel in my Four-Cornered Wall
Beyond the Spheres
Cloak and Dagger
Descending in Dreams
Diwata sa Gitna ng Karimlan
Euphoric Grounds
Fire Lake, Sky Lip Mourner
Fragments of Rebirth
Homage to Eccentricity
I and Or
Into the Thought Portal
Metamorphosis
Mirrors Beneath Complexity
Naked Sanctuary of Fading Flowers
Of Primal Quickening
Pag-ulila, Pagtalikod
Salvation Reprised
Scarlet Rain
Shadow Dancing
Skycladding by the Ruins
Solitude
Soul Grind
The Ballad of Venus Hanged
The Grave Continuum
The Reign
The Remains of a Fallen Valinor
Through the Eyes of Emptiness.
Under A Harlot’s Skin
Vision of Collapsing Stars
Visions in Ebony
You
Reinforced by the Hands that touch the skies
Torment has ways to nurture what remained
But the wounds scar the very core of broken hopes
Release… time will reveal
Crimson entwined with tangerine
Overwhelming strongholds of yore
Daunting waters stood tall
No aegis shall bear and hold
“Drifting visions, recurring thorns
In my darkness, I dwell afloat”
“Swallowing the uncontrollable
Am I truly of the gods?”
Skies ablaze with fiery lamps
Inferno seized the throne and crown
Nigh devouring what were once existing
A void rendering dreams bleak
Yet every beginning transpires from nothing
Insignificance uncovered prosperity
Hand Greens resurrected the Crawlers
Diversity withstood the end anew
The chain of death and life pursued
As above, so below
Scarcity and emptiness redefined the Alpha
A new hope casted shadows away
Instability breeds resolve
Resilience broke barriers
From the ashes of unimaginable horrors
“My children, in bloom”
Lineages established, a future reborn
In the absence of colossal predators
A vast faith sparked into the Resilients
Countless doors opened, “Rise my scions”
Sustenance suffice among hunters and the hunted
The globe is a playground, a fortress, a hearse
Desperation demands for the unthinkable
A prescription for lasting survival
The Greens cradled the Esse
Revolutionized the spirit of diversity
Adaption to unpredictability withered
Birthed the symbiosis with Nature
Peaks nigh touching the heavens
Drawing the biting safeguard crown
New lords emerged, proud and daunting
Laced the thriving of those to be Kings
Surfaces cleansed, embracing changes
Devourers of death and decay ushered life anew
Unexplored grounds spawned divergent frames
Colossal Greens welcomed the embrace
Ferocious hunger intensely driven
“As above, so below”
The hunt inaugurated the convoy
Steps reintroduced away from dawning
Nowhere But Up
Life, primitive as innocence
Dethrones evolution slumber
A seeding, promising hope
Laced with unpredictability
A raging void, awaiting to be filled
Madly unbridled, in need of shaping
“I am your vessel, I am your bearer”
“Into your expansion, I am your vision”
The mere speck in a vast canvas
Spawned predators predated upon
From a cooled down shadowland
A fitting survival by chance
Existence emerged unlooked for
Even in the plunge to darkness
In starlight and in immense depths
A profound salvation becomes abundant
Being emanated from insentience
Its dependency holds true with time
Kaleidoscopic building blocks progress
Blurring all that is lost in the process
“I have sowed the seeds of every beginning”
“Formless and undefined
I, your solvent”
The essence of it all, the key element
Ascend from nothing, be everything
Between the context of freedom altering scorn
Releasing the strength to modify
Readapt to amplify
Being begets being
Yet the origin sprouts a paradox
A mystery hidden in eons to come
Perhaps revealed only after death blooms
A mediocre beginning expanding
To a monumental task
“You are unseen just as I was
Passing through mere sight”
Within the design is self-replication
A key union of existing and progressing
A constant sustenance of cellular change
“Pride yourself with liberation”
Not all have seen the light of day
A number has broken apart
But those that remained intact
Lasted without interruption
The proverbial loop transcends perception
A ouroboros pattern unveils the path
Evolving and diversifying
“While you roam free, you are confined”
The bipolar nature stimulated a response
Reorganizing spontaneously in spheres
Finding comfort in numbers
Harmoniously bridging diametrically opposites
The equilibrium of natural selection arise
Favoring only growth in chemical stability
Heavily armored with perpetuation
A prototype emerges in complexity
Yet in order to create, one must destroy
“Your evolution paved way for revision
Gave birth to new ethers, a new hope
While this propelled your grand ascension
An inexorable plague is impending”
Life spawned life and demise an integral part
The brewing ambrosia for existence
A fatal poison on the other end
Symmetry – destabilize to stabilize
The infernal extinction gradually followed by frost
Spectral opposites yet held a commonality
But Resilients adapted, some through hiding
“Underneath it all, I am your redeemer”
Beneath the paleness of surface
Where thick clouds prohibited light
Glaciation is extremely prominent
But existence endured and thrived
The young celestial sphere similarly preserved
By the expanding universe
A cryptic cycle of balance and cohesive intricacy
Amidst the turning wheel is predation
A vicious necessity for evolvement
Unveiling divinity’s hideous horns
Restoring wings to Hadean thorns
In the guise of abysmal depths
Dance the vast plates
Rearranging, lands collide
Taking shape in new forms
Shadows replicated the obscurity
Brimming symmetrical threats
Vulnerabilities exposed in foreign draft
In an eventful turn, austerity reigns supreme
A dystopian coldness veiled relentless faith
A frozen wasteland remained as light reflected into oblivion
Not even the solar forces hindered what transpired
Yet in this icy prison, the globe was released
The cold spell has been broken, spanning ages
The core preserved its heat,
More than that of the face of the sun
Constant volcanic activity revealed impact
As rocks are embedded in thick ice
Nothing absorbed the spewed gas, caging the warmth of the sun
In turn, paving the way to the rise in temperature
“Awakened once more, in multitude”
“In the arms of darkness, inhabits your extant”
While the frost slowly fade into that of once was
Its remnants across oceans serenaded what is to become
“In my arms, you have survived, and evolved yet again”
“Your diversity and becoming is inevitably unfolding”
Rapid changes are exploding in myriad courses
“In the heart of your agonizing transformation
Lies the dogma of your existence clad in acid”
“Brace yourselves, you are to ascend”
Augmented landmass, heavens transformed
Ushered the gates into multiformity
Symbiosis relegated natural isolation
Compensating for expansion towards greater evolution
Flora and Fauna
Channeled bodies, full of pores
Sans skeleton, no outer shell
Ferrous ion oxidized, turning surface again into red
“Time reveals you are not alone”
Increased elemental levels refreshed the ways of the deep
Adorned with shells and bones, crawling and gliding and dancing
The medium reshapes the cradle of life
Climatic extremes alternated
Death and rebirth propagated
Variation created new forms
Crossbreeding, crown evolution
The grand emergence of complexities
Burst forth in unrivaled abundance
Radiated waves enraptured diversity stems
Eradication broadened the becoming
Natural changes
Collection from fragments
Riddled the unfolding
Nowhere But Up
“Am I from this moment,
Of this primordial hollowness,
Concealing my only truth?”
“Am I? I am…”
Darkness is all there is
Devouring the freedom of what has been and what might be
Time is a captive of the vastness of space
Between the heaven’s embrace and the glare of the abyss
“You have spawned my existence
In the arms of emptiness amongst the Ancients”
“My genesis remains a mystery,
Forgotten through eternity”
“I wandered in profusion,
Confessed my memory”
“Perhaps I have dreamt
Or forever I was in transit”
Lights have taken form
Blinding and majestic
Encompassing its own absence
The once empty void
Gave birth to illumination
Unveiling the remnants of
dead stars and black holes
A reminder that every beginning is a result of an ending
“These visions, possibly known, yet imperfectly remembered”
The cosmic graveyard has been punctured
The seemingly endless night shattered
Chance collisions and revolting ablaze
Intensified the contrast
As dancing blaze adorned the heavens
Massive, dormant black holes awakened
“It is pulling me in yet I care not,
The journey into the unknown is stronger”
The stellar lights moved like serpents
In haste, unknown of what danger it hold
“Yet in this furious, unstable conditions,
I find refuge, a have amidst uncertainties”
The passing of time is irrelevant
In context with death and rebirth
“I stared in awe to the marriage of black holes,
Spiraling and twisting, evolving and creating”
“Their embrace, through the years,
Triggered a ripple in space-time,
Their songs echoed through the universe,
Racing with the speed of light”
Just when adaptation form abduction was at its peak
Death revisited unexpectedly, as always
“My haven spewed me out,
As fast as it once hurled me in”
“Fireworks greeted me as I glide,
My own demise cloaked in celebration?”
“But I am immortal, riding through time,
Perhaps this vision is serving its purpose”
Nowhere But Up
Tonight,
Will the stars stare at me?
Yet I don’t know where will I ever be
And I think this whole blinding light is numb
Did the ethers above shut its vision upon me?
And as my feet touch my tears that flooded the grave
Decapitated but sober while longing it is over
The cross unseen was stripped and
Cladded my sacrilege
Everything is unreal
I got to be on my feet and find my path
Before this night turns to day, I must keep the rot
So I kneel not unto the crucified shadow of mortality
Never will I be a slave for drinking a cleansing blood
Nowhere But Up
I miss the ethers as the burning scars caress my face
Change is not to be grabbed with fear staring at your place
My heaven was as sweet as ambrosia served in a golden plate
And as bitter as the extended devastation made out of hate
I could still smell the aroma of purified, stellar conquest
But after heaven, where will the spirits take their detest?
Stirring the numbing wheel as far as it goes
Not really knowing the destination of the wind-moved rose
Can the sacred be moved off their grounds,
Or just be as stagnant in their holy bounds?
Bright lights propel the irony of sophisticated gore
Blazing downfall, engaging and wanting more
A gown of toxicity etched in my wrists
The altar of medusa spawned as a hand of time ticks
Will heaven come down when blindness ascend,
And circle the paths where the oceans lament?
Mercury whispered about the war of my thoughts
But where is your heaven as I carry my cross?
Plunged me into your stud-filled eyes, I let myself soak
Until the predictable wetness becomes a noose on my throat
After heaven, where am I supposed to go?
Still in its arms where my breathing becomes slow?
Tear the journey I will have to
For I know the stars will regroup yet lose their hue
Heaven is creeping but will I give in?
I crave for it but to prioritize is to sin
Now the wickedness has its way
But I know the dome where I could still slay
Nowhere But Up
I’m not worthy of divinity, hiding from heaven
As God’s face is constantly bleeding and wounded
Crystal drops from my eyes into my lips,
Tasting the emptiness within me
Demons plaguing me everywhere
I can’t hide, I can’t run
My head’s spinning from the dizzying scent of darkness,
The shadow of everything I don’t want to become
My horns are growing, I want it broken, forever broken
Dreaded piece of mortality, screaming to break free
Poisoned lungs of weakness, I’m singing my requiem to the world
Breathe no more, breathe no more
Silence come to me
Ashes fall down from above me, upon my dirty hands of guilt
Screaming my soul out from the deepest thought there is,
swallowing the consequences of all my deeds
Proclaim justice, crucify me
Pin me down to an endless mourn
I am walking through this labyrinth, never-ending
Walking blindfolded, Feeling the air as it crushes through my face
I’ve been here before, I know, but it’s somewhat different now
Saw light on the other side, no, I’ve seen nothing before
In front of me was the same window, but it was locked except for one
I heard some noise, then it stopped
My hands reached out to unlock what’s in front of me
And once more, stepped into somewhere forbidden…
My blood-shot eyes, fully awakened,
stared in the still darkness before me
I was alone…somehow
I cannot feel any existence from the other door
But the wind whispered I was wrong
The warmth confirmed it and made me shiver
It was not beside me nor was it from within
I care less, for this is the place where my time stood still
This is where something shed its light
How I wish this is endless
For when I am here, I fear almost nothing
There were times when my spirit was devoured by deception and lies
Soul-grinding, feeling it still, in this same place
Summoning warmth in a cold, dark night
Pure light dances but I know this isn’t heaven nor it is hell
A fragment to live my life for a moment,
If I really had one
The demons in my head speak
But their horns fell broken as I set my eyes upon an angel
Wings and halo, she has none
But as I look deeply into her eyes, I see everything
But it burned and starts to set fire
Blazes everywhere, but I stood still
In a place where my time ceased
I dreamed of eternity in flames
Nowhere But Up
Ashes fall and yet I see
…everything
Sewn these eyes from the three-folded walls,
That caged the dreams of transcending silence
These dreams will evolve…
…like the oceans chained me into this celestial journey,
to the prying eyes and visions before me
Offer me thy wings that I may begin throwing my consciousness
Let me drown, I’m born again
My heart steals shadows from the skies
These shadows breathe fire as I fly
Control eternity in surreal sleep
Pray for mortal thoughts that devoured the absence of life itself
Crucified by rights, hands that touched divine
Impure I might but the endless will be the sign
(of the) angels of heaven before me
I see angels of heaven weep in blood
…the gathering has just began
Nowhere But Up
Swimming the abyss in my whole nakedness
To pull a portrait out of diabolic waters
Massaging the looking glass of distress
Yet I could be your savior who falters
Have you seen right through me
With colors from gigantic eyes?
Or just some virgin visions
Wherein your ideal lies?
I,
The dislocated one
The maverick of nothingness
Excommunicated
Limited wisdom from my foolish evangelism
Is my daily bread
Now tell me, who am
I?
In the firmament of spirits, you have spoken
The deliverance of compassion beneath the numbness
My heart you have flamed as a token
Cultivated the black celebrity no less
Your eyes have taken my jester twin
Through an endless voyage that eats time
And I am enjoying the dangerous swim
In a black hole exclusively mine
You,
The angelic force,
The cleansing leech
Adorable
Cloaking accidental joy in extremely
Erasing nightmares
Now I say, goddess-like
You
The perversion of stars in an aberrant lust
Blew away my decaying mask
Alienated by a disappearing rust
Gave birth to a dreamy task
How I wanted to mimic you
And revolve around your innocence
But we are in a diverse hue
Yet high with heavenly potency
You,
The dislocated one
The maverick of nothingness
Excommunicated
Limited wisdom from your foolish evangelism
Is your daily bread
Now tell me, who are
You?
I,
The angelic force,
The cleansing leech
Adorable
Cloaking accidental joy in extremely
Erasing nightmares
Now I say, god-like
I
The navel of strength between us
Is the screaming of our souls and spirits
Lavish passion beneath cuss
Deeper endearment I inherit
Commandeered a forbidden trip
To an infinite sphere so eccentric
Unequaled peaks, unmatched depths
That is the path that our romance caress
Nowhere But Up
Armageddon walk with me
Begging please, I need to see
This insanity won’t set me free
Pour on me all your lifeless sweetness
I will sleep but I will not wake
Angel of Mercy, just leave me this way
The gods somehow unleashed their wrath
And I willingly drank it all in
So I descend,
Drifted and dreamed away
Clasped my hands before the spell
I am falling deep with the rain
Will there be light to fill this emptiness?
Wounded wings of misery
Blackened thoughts and memories
My spirit torn apart yet my lips are sturdily sealed
A broken frame came my way
The lights went out then turned to gray
Now I can see that hope is drifting away
But you have saved me from falling
Touched my scars with so much meaning
A new dawn that turned out to be within you
The blazing fire freezes over my hell
Altered my reality into small fragments,
Pieces that shape a new beginning
A grander form sharpened by my descent
Now I am off the world’s chains
You took my hand and flew me away
Above the clouds as I close my eyes
I am enthralled
The Undead, that is thou
Nowhere But Up
Liwanag mo ay mistulang tala na bumubulag sa aking paningin
Kaluluwa ko ay binihag na lubos ng iyong kariktan at kalikasan
Aking diwata, mga kamay mo ay nais kong humaplos sa mga yapak ng aking puso
Tila langit ang hawak ko sa pagtingin na dulot ng iyong mga mata
Mga labi mo ay sing init ng nagngangalit na mapusok na araw
Anong kagandahan ang iginuguhit ng sumasayaw mong tinig
Sa iyong tabi ang aking mundo ay huminto sa pagikot
Nalasing ang hangin sa kamusmusan ng aking kaisipan
Inalipin mo, aking Diwata, ang nagkukubli ko na pagasa
Hindi ko maramdaman ang apoy ng langit sa aking paanan
Sumisigaw ang buong katauhan ko at pangalan mo ang pawang binabanggit
Lahat ay nakalimutan, kahit ang karimlan
Hindi ko nais magising kung ito man ay kathang-isip
Mga paa ko ay nakapako sa landas na hindi ko ninais umalis
Sa piling mo, Diwata ko, ang aking paghinga ay nagkaroon ng kahulugan
Pinawi mo ang uhaw na bumabalot sa aking kasaysayan
Binuksan ang nakapinid na pintuan ng aking puso sa pamamagitan ng
iyong luha at ngiti
Hindi lubusang maisip ang panahon na wala ka sa aking tabi
Sa pira-pirasong mga sandali na iyong alay, ako ay nabuhay na muli
Lumalakad sa kristal na batis ng iyong mga yakap
Idinuduyan sa hagdan ng kalangitan
Ang mga puno at ibon ang syang mga saksi
Sa ningning at alab ng umaawit kong dibdib
Ikaw, aking diwata, ang tunay na kahulugan ng aking paglipad at
paggising
Hawak mo ang buhay na hangin na aking nilalanghap
Ang iyong dugo ay dumadaloy sa aking mga ugat
Magpakailan pa man, mananatili at hindi mawawalay
Bumubulong ang kapayapaan sa gitna nating dalawa
Huwag lalayo sa paningin ng isa’t-isa
Muling ipinanganak ang bagong paraiso na ating kaharian
Sinugatan at pinaslang natin ang apoy ng impyerno
Nainggit ang mga anghel at kagandahan ng mga bulaklak sa ating nadarama
Magkahawak kamay, ating kaluluwa ay tuluyang nagbigkis sa awit na tila walang hanggan
Aking diwata, huwag magmaliw hanggang sa wakas
Ikaw ang buhay, panaginip at simula
Sa aking pagtahak tungo sa ginintuang daigdig
Ang buo mong imahe at kamalayan ang aking ibig
Ngunit tadhana ay di mahahawakan,
Di mapipigilan ng kahit sinuman
Bumulong ang hangin, walang humpay na hagupit
Sugat ay maghihilom din sa umagang kay lapit
Walang pagsisisi at di magkukubli
Huwag malumbay at sa halip ay magbunyi
Sa gitna ng dilim mukha mo ay itaas
Sapagkat ang buhay ay nayakap mo kahit puno ng dahas
Nowhere But Up
The core of the moon nibbled the dust on my face
Foreboding the pigments drawn between elegance of the chase
Of a tamed, vivid shade of explicable grandeur
Carving a timeless dance orbiting through intimacy wherein torches endure
Ecstatic traces of mesmerizing imperfections of flight
Into curses of intangible holes gnawing the light
Through Eden and Gethsemane giving birth to flames
Veiling the dull, elusive corpse of the undying lust for shame
Whispering the vital whore of compassion captured in a cell
Blown away by archangels in a kingdom where they fell
Boxed and drained, yet suffice, the residue reveals it all
Behold the kiss of the serpent redeeming the call
Refusing the vast mirrors that spawned the monster
Enlighten the beast of a fractured heart, who’s the servant, who’s the master?
Beckon the purpose of a golden child amidst supremacy
Towards a gift divided into lucidity
The forbidden righteousness written in eloquence
Pictured the claws of grasping silence
The genesis of freedom lying with wolves
Belittle the mysticism of conquering collectively locked doors
The swans playing captives to serenity drunk in plagues
Like candles shine evenly in the eyes of blinding grace
Kneel and bow down to the majestic wings
Of embracing pure misanthropic dreams
Nowhere But Up
Moved i am, amidst Her purity, a victim i need to be…
On Niflheim i have walked with shut eyes but apparitions of Her made me see…
Nigh are my hands from Her existence, so rare a moment, that
If my mortal coil be cut now, ecstatic i’d still be…
Kingdom come portrayed on a diverse atmosphere, a light empowered by one —
A lady deity blanketed my ears from the Azif, in such a manner that nobody can…
Kinetic drama of epic proportions raped my soul and i adore Her…
I thirst for Her like an addiction, bathe in the embrace of Her unworldly, sweet poison…
Everything took a halt…my majestic, junoesque goddess is within me…
Radiating full-blown bliss occupies the emptiness in utmost reverie…
Unspoken tongues of the arcane bestowed upon my feet while i float in ecstasy…
Looking into Her eyes peeled my humanity and took me beyond the beyond…
Forbidden earthly, yet not forsaken…for who could utter what’s divine and what’s cursed?
Probing the holiness of sincerity, i plunged to the unknown where even the gods feared to pierce…
Roses bloom in Her mouth like the stars above when the beauty of darkness has devoured the light…
Eden reborn before my eyes…how i defy death to be caged in Her arms perpetually…
Yet my goddess has a cherubim and a god who could condemn my soul…
Savor the aroma of paradise in my hands before it vanishes…
Love, so precious, so ethereal, so magnetic, so eccentric that i gave in and remorseful i am not…
Eternity is void without this moment, without this event…for it is mortality displayed…
Raise me up once more, my goddess, for this moment, i breathe for you…
Nowhere But Up
I tried to cheat who I really am
Despite the undeniable knowledge that I don’t belong
An error it is not
For it is written in the stars
We all do have our fears
But feeding it concludes nothing
Tears are prelude to gaining strength
But have you been weeping forever?
Having visions of your future is not living in vain
Not all drowns in pain for some swallows it
Running away, running away, I still am
No mortal thoughts could possibly understand
Shutting my eyes, shutting my eyes, I still do
For the most adorable things dwell in the unseen too
Why do you think we close our eyes when we sleep?
Not to rest but to see better things that this plane cannot possess
I scream only when I stop dreaming
Not on mortal plane, yet I’m still standing
Since primordial times, I’m at war with my demons
I make them bleed with my own poison
The scent of death is good
Only when it is close to your heart
I can hold it in my hands, so pity me not
Running away, running away, I still am
And I don’t expect you nor anyone to understand
Shutting my eyes, shutting my eyes, I’d still be
Now close your own eyes if you want to see me
Come throw your stones at me
For the reason that my thoughts aren’t based on your reality
Optimistic entities need my negativity
To balance what they embrace and tend to see
Hear my words without me speaking
One time you did, but now you are not listening
I maybe living a lie in my disguise
But in my own world, I might be your christ
Nowhere But Up
Inaudible time,
I am still listening to the voices that rarely speak.
Never knew when it all began.
Memories tend to betray
I dreamed of endless evenfall
When everything is embraced by twilight
Words have fallen, truth has spoken but now…
…the lips are sealed again, waiting for another reign
Unravel me with thoughts of purity,
that are drenched in my own blood.
Take my breath if that’s what it takes for me…
…to ascend everything, everything that’s made.
Fly, we’re bound to fly
Liberate our minds throughout space and time
Fly, we’re bound to fly, liberated minds,
throughout space and time
I chained my soul to what I believed to be immovable
The scream of silence poking
My benevolent spirit’s shedding.
I need my wings to grow again…
…in you
Nowhere But Up
Ridiculous images have been redeeming my thoughts
Carving an instrumental masterpiece of sorts
What if my concept of vision is lost,
Will there still be beauty in a lifeless pause?
Dried yet high in a relentless pool
My hands are full with glowing fools
I cradle the thorns of my flaming heart
To burst the skin of an endless start
Both my feet rooted deeply to the ground
So that the earth and I are tightly bound
Have not moved an inch, I’ve gone nowhere
Yet revolved and rotated everywhere
Through higher grounds my legs extend
Transcending skies where my stand depends
The weight of stones blemishes the strength
Of the pillars that are unworldly bent
Comprehending the signs of madness
I felt the birth of darkness
As the growing stiffness between my pillars
Became the dragon of fallen stars
Pandora’s angels came out entirely
From my halved chest, cut severely
While my panting heart slowly revealed
Casting shadows of immortality killed
I eventually lost my hands and arms
And instead, I grew wings of psalms
As big as the universe with naked eyes
Yet microscopic when purity cries
The fire of frailty covers my flesh
Burning beneath it are my veins of mesh
My crimson river invades the air
Wetting my drought-like lips extremely bare
Pointed are my teeth, mimicking horns
Dividing my tongue into little thorns
I now speak in tongues of ancient times
Like spitting melodies from lovely chimes
My wind tunnels portray the gateways
Inside of each is a spiral staircase
As to where it leads remains a mystery
That even I, myself, cannot see
Pounding cries, I hereby hear
Like a symphonic memento from a driven spear
Now I understood the winds’ voices
As it pierces my ears with tempting choices
These fragile eyes are taking its toll
Mirrors broken and are beginning to fall
My soul escaped for too much weeping
Yet the spirit remained but is slowly peeping
Cerebral laces entwined strongly
Beneath the shadows of sweet fury
Doors unlocked in intimacy
Of mouthful spells of ecstasy
The transformation has been done
Now the moon had eclipsed the sun
My spirit and soul collide to be free
As my heartbeat stopped, I became me
Nowhere But Up
Fragments of sanity flickered through the veins of time
Nevertheless, inhaled a tortured, augmented scene
Enveloping a sphere of ecstasy devoured by shadows
That catapulted a stream of whispering little voices
Dancing through the winds of ambient freedom
The gods of rapture humbled the chaotic strangle of soothing wounds
Eclipsed by daggers of silence
Numb and deaf, flies to an atmosphere of angel-filled dimension
To a light that struck my eyes, casted a spell of thousand flowers
A fragrance that held me beneath the mirrors of complexity
I wanted to stare dearly, drown myself completely
Cage everything I own,
Everything I know, everything I hold
Trembling as I speak before every single moving flesh
Delivered unto the pathetic lies wherein the earthly prophets dwell
Delusional thoughts,
Close your eyes and be blinded
For the hands that built your dogma,
Is bleeding like the memories of heaven
Peeling the repetitive skin that chambers our collapsing sacrilege to none
Nowhere But Up
You took me in a place somewhere
Where no one ever knows, where no one ever thread
Not heaven nor even hell
A place where all of you and pieces of me could be in balance
A mystery
Is it all over
When I am here,
All my hollowness fades away?
Is it all over
When I am on your grounds?
Will my fragility be harmless in your care?
Never wanted anyone to see me crawling on my knees and hands
This vulnerability is feasting on me again
But then again every time you hold your heart with mine
I want to be blind with you all this time
To cease the motion
Whenever, wherever, I care not
As long as you are listening
It is all over
When I am here
All my hollowness fades away
It is all over
When I am on your grounds
My fragility is harmless in your care
Hear the voices amidst the midnight
Falling upon dry lips as it fades
I see it bathe with us
Like fairies’ embrace
You all are by my side
Circling around as you all lay
Sleep now, all guardians
Hostility comes as the dawn breaks
Nowhere But Up
Dawning and promising is the rebirth of purpose
Unparalleled hope recreating the devastated
Beneath the remains of isolation sprouted shadows
“I see you still, behold, you are free”
Yet freedom is never abiding and given
The vicious cycle sustained and dire
A labyrinth for Thinkers to unravel
“Expansion will be upon you, become you”
“Your liberty is beyond cages, emerging”
“Your hunger, a weapon to thrive”
Senses transcend, brilliance in abundance
Enduringly a breakthrough, a vision to last
Hostility reshaped its dreadful head
Lines betrayed in heinous force
Expanded awareness sets chaos
Into unrestricted feral yearning
Every infancy spawn from cadaver
The beginning of the end is a beginning
A master scavenger to a persistent hunter
Necessary dependence, dancing to mutualism
Formative years spread through eons
Stability built a great fortress
Detailed purpose pristinely precise
“Now I see a masterpiece in disguise”
Infernal delight, a guiding light
The Elixir of nativity beyond recognition
Scarlet gold, a protector from darkness
A tripping embrace of care and affection
Words, a vital piece developed
Amidst the endless battle for survival
A tool stronger than knives and spears
Escorted the new evolution
“I am your light, your confusion”
“Your confusion is your salvation”
Threading aimlessly blind into divinity
Darkness is all there is
Devouring the freedom of what has been
Purpose has pierced the very core of life
Devoid of innocence
Unfolding such perilous times
Life itself consumed the wonders
Reinforced by the hands that touch the skies
“Now I am”
“Am I?”
Nowhere But Up
Lifelessness consumed the web of wonders
Defying most of what’s to become
The mystical flaw, the neglect of reason
Holding back the bones of time
Indisposed in the confines of
the grave wheel of uncertainty
“But still I am, the Omniscient Justice”
“Devourer of halting minds”
These are days of Old
Which casted shadows of the Now
The Great Dying birthed supremacy
Dominance reaped the expanding fear
Yet enormity wreaked susceptibility
Prey preyed upon in cycle
Death reclaims mastery over the Origin
Reshaping surfaces over again
Restless reinvention
Unfolding multiplicity
Colossus flourished and ruled
Lording in all optic scopes
The struggle for eminence built to last
Internal defiance corresponds to none
Generations elapsed, behemoths thrived
Eclipsing counterparts, reigning still
Unsuspected, mayhem hovers above
Demise of ascendency in an instant
Infernal descent, destroying anything in its path
The skies revolted, mirroring scenes below
Destruction unleashed
The grave passing rekindled
Boulders in flames rained down
Lighting the dark heavens untamed
Everything is a blur, convulsing
“These visions still linger”
The onslaught embraced what is
Crimson largely occupied the surfaces
“The one birthed you becomes your death”
“Darkness through my eyes fell”
The Hiddens held out
Consuming all amidst the aftermath
Improbable heirs to precedency
In the cycle of end and resurrection
In memory of the once supreme
Serenity transcends
With the torch of evolvement
Diversity reinforced
Nowhere But Up
Unfolding perilous times of old
In the midst of countless rebirths
Raised by chaos in love with heaven’s rage
A touch uncovered ruthless chains deranged
Hostilities reign supreme
In light of myriad changes
Above waters engulfed new seeds
“Unbound from my embrace”
Spreading on lands, encompassing
Imprinting firstborns reanimate
Specific nexus resurfacing
“I am in you, I am you”
“Your ignorance, your indifference
Avow little of what is to become”
“Cherish the temporary bliss
Of liberty not to be judged amiss”
Deep in the darkness of the origin
Whirred the evolutionary continuum
Solidifying the aegis of survival
The resilience of the weak reborn
Flourished are the ways of the Green
Vigorously exerting necessities
Refurbishing not only what is below
But taming likewise the vile above
Reclaiming the surface are deep-dwellers
Armored by respiratory shields
“Breathe and explore”
“Devour your naivety”
‘Your infant eyes await”
From above, new yes shifted
Gifted with flight and colossal magnitude
Universal perspectives present extensive views
From imperceptible to leviathan
Cages fragmented now from the ground
Giant roamed and conquered the lands
Hardened heraldic bearing reframed
Led the advance of special-skinned vehemence
Diversity continued in many forms
Yet some lurked behind shadows
Darkness its driving force
Vespertine crawlers remained
Inescapably the vicious cycle became apparent
As always with growth comes decay
The Green struggled and lost
A residue that shall echo for centuries
Progress yet again halted abruptly
As black dust reintroduced extinction
In Death’s massive arms, life imprisoned
“My children, my reflection, doom our likeness”
“Fret not the scent of Death
For this in time shall come to pass”
“Twin with ruin, perhaps you are
But your seed shall resurrect”
Annihilation spread vastly and swiftly
Wiping out almost everything
Across plains, above and beneath it
All are compromised, nothing is beyond reach
Amidst the harshness, the Calmers thrived
Another inferno was given birth to
Reverting to the primordial state
The solitary traverse to lifelessness
Nowhere But Up
Purpose has pierced the very core
Of a collapsing reality, decaying clandestinely
Into the descent to imminent ruins
Brought forth to, recreate
“Gathering the fragments of my very existence,
I became more aware, consciousness in bloom”
“The afterglow lifted the veil of plight,
Upon my desolation comes my rebirth”
The passage came to a temporary end
A fierce atmosphere bestowed unfamiliar reception
Increasing air pressure in diminishing altitude
Redesigning clouds as the new stronghold, a new host
“The sun, this sun, is accommodating, sending vital heat
Imprisoned, as I may be
But I will conquer all complexities”
“I am of the gods”
Eon swept away memories, taking much from once was
Casting shadow yet leaving traces for curiosity
From above, observing in dust and mist
The formative, primal pre-existence
Orpheus altered the infernal infancy
Distorting the fiery periphery
A residual halo spawned Luna
Enchanting, a reflection of anima
Mother Light sustained the cycle of Exodus and resurgence
Unveiling and obscuring, a prelude to existence
“I am everywhere, the Overseer
Reawakened, I am many”
As ages traverse, aflame shroud reduced
Insidious winds declared atrocity
Overwhelming tides swallow the surface
Amidst unstable lights and growling voices
“In venom I watched you endure,
Emerging for evermore”
Distance unfolds serenity, Luna recoiled
In declining pace, the celestial orb rotates
“In my embrace, molten temples arise,
Reshape the ground in multitude”
Recent arrivals disturbed the peace
The heaven send countless assaults
“In my deepest, darkest chamber,
It is time,
I give life”
Nowhere But Up
Scarlet rain, push me beyond reasons
Rolling over my passion is the wound of Astra
“What’s above, so is below”
The charmed spirit of the arcane mission
Scarlet rain, scarlet rain
I tasted you, you touched me, unity
Fierce hands wrapped around the eyes of perfection
Heavenly flowers bloom shame
Weeping pain, scarlet rain
Nailing the murder of my emotional wardrobe
Copulated the stars astray
Moaning silence shape-shifts compassion divine
Breathe with me, scarlet rain
Dividedly walking in dreams and reality
Flood the gateways of enlightenment
So I may float like the ghost of time
Bathe in the rays of the Sun King I will not
For only you, scarlet rain, deliver me warmth
Through the mysticism of falling down
The twelfth moon betrayed
Kiss the oddity of reflection in a cocoon
The tongue that held the torch within
Is blown away by the chariots of heightened awareness
The tears of ethers, scarlet rain, enslaved I am
Nowhere But Up
Spell-binding motionless fatigue for hatred
Committed and embraced a sobriety suicide
Lying on deity of a sleep so dreaded
Blackened in a wake of ethereal deicide
The quickening of a loaded revolver of thoughts
This is a journey of unmasking inner spirituality
An enigmatic afterglow, chambering in three-folds
Fear not the shadow, a reflection of darkness and its beauty
Do not be deceived by external vision,
For most of loveliness lies in the unseen
The reason why mortals dwell in confusion,
They fear the unknown, more than ever been
Now I’ve sewn my eyes and bathed with the dance
Allow me to sink and drown through my solitude trance
Nowhere But Up
As I close my eyes from my existence,
I touched the grave, the spirit, the dust
Where once my soul, for many years,
Tried to dwell, searching for unknown peace
Wished I’d see every stare and motion
For once, maybe
Someone,
Somehow,
Will shed a tear
Time so twisted that I can’t feel my sanctuary
Nor the illuminating thought if I am real
Breathe no more, this is eternal sleep
On the other side, towards my own sequel
I will walk through the gates of time
Divinity
Thy holiness
Swallow a bullet upon my consciousness
I hung myself upon thy cross
To be drunk by the redeeming blood
For I want to see the glowing face
The truth behind your lord, your god
Crucify me with exaltation wings
Strip me off my chaotic dreams
Dress me up in cleansing white
Like the Ainur, I’ll throw my voice out
Will I have to open my eyes,
Once more towards thy pearly gates?
New Jerusalem, Valacirca
Appear before my eyes
Embrace
Warm-fulfilling
Nowhere But Up
Where, where am I?
I, alone, in this lie
Can I touch the sky and fly really high?
I am floating with the fumes of your hatred
Am I on my own?
At times, I want to turn my back on this
For I do not trust myself
Remember me that day
Remember me that day
Fly wings of pain and lay my arms on you
My solitude standing in front of me
Staring motionless as it holds my hand
Naked, so it seems
But I feel nothing for I am nothing
Compassionate burden, keep feeding my spirit
With something to believe in that would keep me whole
Though unworthy in the eyes of the world
I still long for more
Spit it out on me
Like anyone who is lost and blind
My cage of pain is none of a kind
I slipped
Then I fell
But no, don’t you break my fall
For I am reborn in my own demise
Nowhere But Up
Hindi mo alam, dama nya ang lahat ng iyong nararamdaman
Kinukubli lamang sa mga tanong ang lahat ng nalalaman
Sa bawat pagpatak ng mga luha, bahagi ng kanyang hininga ay pumapanaw
Habang patuloy mong sinasambit na sarili nya lang ang binibigyang linaw
Ang mga salitang yon na pawang sibat na bumaon sa kanyang laman
Kanyang niyakap, mabigyan lang ng kahulugan ang nais mong mapakinggan
Kalakip ang kanyang paalala na wala kang kasalanan
Sarili ay wag sisihin sapagkat ang puso mo ay walang kasamaan
Tulad mo, nababalot ng digmaan ang kanyang dibdib at isipan
Habang sya ay naglalakad sa dilim ng kawalan
Di malaman kung saan patungo, ano ang kanyang natanto?
Na kinaya mo, sa isang iglap, iguho ang kanyang munting mundo
Tila multo nyang ipinilit itawid ang nanghihinang kalooban
Upang ang iyong konsensya ay manatiling buo at di mabahiran
Kahit kanyang batid na ang iyong mga mata, ano mang pilit
Ay di mo na muling ibabaling sa kanyang direksyon, nakapinid
Hindi na kikislap pa tulad ng dati, hindi na mangungusap
Ngunit sya, sa mga tala, ay patuloy umaasa na muling malasap
Ang lumang pagtingin na bumihag, pumukaw, at nagpaalab
Sa gitna ng kanyang kaluluwang uhaw sa apoy at pagyakap
Subalit ang yong nais ay bumitiw at iligaw,
Iwaksi ang langit, wag dinggin ang kanyang mga sigaw
Dahil sa iyo yun ang madali, pawang napakadali
Ang magpakabulag, magpakabingi, sa totoong sarili
Sa likod ng liwanag, sya ay tumakbo at nagkubli
Sa hiya ng iyong paghusga, kanyang tapang ay nasawi
Marahil ay ang pagkakataon na iyon ang tunay mong hinihintay
Na tuluyan syang kainin, sakluban ng pangil ng pagninilay
Nowhere But Up
How, when and why?
Questions whose answers eluded any sign
A piece of heaven deeply struck me
Aphrodite has wielded her mystery
Years passed, I have not looked at the sky
For I, as I could ever be, am so high
Never have I believed that a blissful heart
Be tamed and conquered, be put to a halt
The sun peeks, devours darkness
I think of you, amidst my madness
Images of you fill my thoughts, droning my sorrow
Embracing the moment, not minding tomorrow
I adore your eyes, I see through you
Even when everything else is colorless, no hue
The flow of your hair puts to shame
The divine water, mortals call rain
Your soft lips brought me to my knees
I tried to hide, tried to fight it, but the longing never ceased
Your scent takes me to that moment when time stood still
My heart yearned to stay, screamed in silence, “grant my will”
You don’t walk, you glide
Like an angel as you passed by my side
A glimpse of that smile, I crave
One touch, when everything falls, I am saved
Your charming hands traced my soul
And by those hands, even through hell I will crawl
My demons whispered that I have sinned
Perhaps heaven’s wronged, but love is my wind
You are my wind, let myself be
In a disorderly world, you’re my sanity
By this reverie, I choose to stay
To you I am bound, until my breath is swept away
But all these are meaningless, a truth that only you can comprehend
For your heart is still caged by your past, as I am ancient and disintegrating
Yet I proclaim love uncompromised, through walls and uncertainties
How, when, and why? Will it eventually fall in deaf ears?
Nowhere But Up
Crawl myself out of this gravity now
For again I am defenseless
Shape-shifting
Gasping for air from within
I scream in the absence of words
Trapped in my cradle of mazes
Throwing morsel portions while thinking
That the Sickle of Doom will find my way
Wondering when will Death finally reveal her face upon me
Will I be free?
Will you be there Ea?
My eyes are swollen
Nail me down, feed my cravings with your fiery whip
The nothingness has come but I will not hide
Deeply inhaling every essence of it
Completely banished
Time and space ignored
For eternity, it will be revolving through me
Bored with the three-dimensional plane’s den
I pray with my broken wings of all my suffering
Give me more light to define darkness truly
A majestic beauty that I long to capture in repetition
Isolation
Intoxication
Crucifixion for condemnation
But why will I run every time to kill this condemnation?
This redefines the fragments of my shadow
Nowhere But Up
The glow of light
Shimmering
Swing of flowers blooming
Kindness stabbed hate
Disconnected myself from life feeding on life
The marriage of thoughts provokes bliss,
Yet my humanity long for your touch
Hiding crystals from my eyes
Unbearable, it may seem, but suffering is futile…
For you have created the growth within
Numbness made me feel
Feel everything unreal
As if you exist before me,
An empty space filled
But still the hollow speaks and I listened
Dancing on a death march into captivity
Afraid I was not
Hallucination is a perfect dream escape from reality
At times, I am made
But I opted to swallow the rot
Deep I go into a sleep with your hands on my heart
Making me blow the filth out
Love I fear, a schizophrenic fool
A sphere of chains cladding you into illusion,
Then morphing into a morning
With birds singing amidst the smiling sun
Such great deception of withering thirst for awakening
Drained from the touch of the god’s flaming eyes
Concluding to a disarray of flooding tentacles
Elongated by the torch produced by caged puppets
I was once a captive, a slave to a one-eyed king
But I cut off my strings and embedded it upon my tomb
The absence of light made me look through a different perspective
Opening the gates to a sea of dreams
The glow of a crystal-like perfection
Appears in your face and I could see it
You are holding a piece of paradise wrapped in wings and thorns
Will you walk with me through fire and rain in my woundless hands?
A taj mahal for whom that offered detest upon my feet
Fangs of the skies buried upon my scabbed flesh
Withering
Then I rose, in transit, swaying with the winds of torment
Never pity
The sound of melancholic madness held me gently in its arms
As I watched you gaze through me with overflowing heart
In the garden of shame, you carried me
Across the timeless arcs
Of false churches pointing to revelation extinction
The womb of truth is a phantom
Unknowingly hidden behind the veil of lust
The intercourse of visions and thoughts
Trapped in a temple where Venus was hanged
The day freewill opened its eyes
Nowhere But Up
I am breathing a holy air yet I fear
I fear the fangs of uncertainty that may lay ahead
The thought of cruelty bleeding my heaven
Engages me in a duel that I cannot win
For I am nothing and has nothing
Compared to the enormous figure before me
How long can I hold my paradise?
How long will it stay within my grasp?
A voice came unto me saying that time holds the future
And I listened, listened with all reasons of truth
In spite the fiends in my head, I held to the voice
Like dancing to something devoid of music
The profound thought is staring me in the face with pure virginity
Resistance is never an option
It defines everything that completed me
Disharmonic emblem
Carved in detailed manifestation of sobriety
How pristine the velvet silhouette dives within
I am existing without the prolonged concept of living
The stench of reality contained me through broken dreams
Wanting it like the light of the Silmarils
Spiked with its intense scarcity
The world became blind,
So is everything that moved around me
It matters not for I long dwell in dread
Mortality was eaten through a silver platter
Where is the reason for my breathing?
Why is it that I’m choking on hell’s vile?
Blurring the once so colorful interior of my thoughts
Then I wept an ocean of lament
The disturbance kept me disoriented
Lush abandonment bestowed its needles through my heart
The bleeding is unforgiving, it never ceased
Dim are the doorways into fairer grounds
Obtuse cruelty beckons the alarm for falling
I scarred myself to sleep, a sacred diversion
My stronghold is just a void through my bloodshot eyes
The monster was brought to life once again
Its abominable fangs deeply locked in my skin
But why do I continue standing and walking?
The mystery is a beast in itself
I can never turn my back on hope and bliss
However, it is eating and burying me alive
I have set my eyes on all these
And have painted my face with a twisted grin
Cursed is my name etched on a glass
Cure my humanity and shrink my loss of sanity
The residue of astral flight is a stone on my throat
I need to breathe, bring forth my halo
Grassy thorns of bewilderment
Swimming its way to my diminishing consciousness
Strengthening the pigments
Of mutilated carcasses of suicide
Valinor have fallen, I can feel it through my veins
The wrath of the third dimension is lurking beside me
It is creeping and crumbling down upon me like a raging storm
A stampede that could put me in an endless spell
Yet I am shielding myself from every detail there is
The ancient escape of death threads my brains
But I am weak and I fear
I am riding a disordered wheel of sweet, uncultured sorrow
Divorcing myself from myself,
The mystical tragedy of Aphrodite
How I miss the ignorance of a jesus in a coma
Time has its own tale to tell
I long that I could still be here to listen
Arda is a huge emptiness to fill
And I refrain from getting involved
I am existing in my own place
Yet I am fragile and vulnerable
The voice is of great strength that I had to cling on to
But my ears are painted with crimson red
Everything that I forced myself to believe in is just an illusion
For my hands are empty as a starless night
Drained with paleness of a stolen light
Give birth to my filthy, decaying spirit
The ruins of my soul is drowning amidst the sea of iniquity
Nowhere But Up
Silhouettes from up above me
Shattered the images of wounded angels
Driven and grasped the wings of mortality
Piercing needles of hate and lies
Devoured the flux of light
Manipulating…emerging from nowhere
Crawling beneath my weakness and numbing my sanity
Fragile…casting shadows amidst blindness
Stripping…shredding to reveal second skin
The thirst for reality, drowning in flames…impurity
Unloaded barrels of disintegrating truth
Unlocked doors that lead to a monster called
Fate…
Lips uttering spoken scriptures painted on blank walls
Fearing but needing the embrace of hands clothed in divinity
To resurrect the remains of a labyrinth
Flowing through the whispers of footsteps behind
The beauty of desolation
Isolation
Hearing voices calling upon deceptive reflection of different colors
Lovely as they are
For mortal visions cannot see
Through the eyes of emptiness
Nowhere But Up
Your voice I miss in an empty rock
Saturated smile under a golden lock
Space in between I tried to fill
Shattered wrists with wounds that never heal
I pierced you with sunshine still
A glow that ancient minds cannot reveal
Bleak is the ocean of time concealed
Where is the stronghold that our arms have built?
See my eyes with what nakedness brings
The portal of chains fortified as purity sings
Ride the winds in a restless bliss
Imaginary death in a devil’s kiss
Do you feel me now with blazing skin,
Like of the sun in a raging sin?
The curse of destiny is never hopeless
Amidst the wrath, I am unmasked and undressed
I am the angel your lips have uttered
And the demon that whispered when your heart has faltered
Inhale the vile of a dreaded sleep
Yet awaken to the aroma of a dying fleet
Drain me with tongues that paint the occult
Written in words that make my thoughts revolt
Thieves of stench mirror your pure face
Veiled by tears fencing an adorable place
The void had bathe me once again
Pungent as the flame in a vacuum den
Drilled a hole in the core of my thoughts
Descending corpses rushing at my loss
The war of solitude engaged the morphing,
Breathing meekness, the stoppage it brings
The warmth eclipsed by the biting coldness
Of the grave-like potion that made me breathless
Welcome recurring hell, we meet once more
Suck me dry like you did before
Your fiery sword caresses my veins
More of these and I will taste your gaze
The fossil of ominous virginity speaks
As the heat embeds the red-stained sheets
Like vultures await their prey
The drought heightens as I lay
Blessed ignorance attacks the vows
Of dreamy landscapes in molten hours
Holes revolve in drastic pace
Neurotic orgasm reclaims my place
Fantasia enamor, evanescent mist
In a daze of weakness appears grace
Windows closed in a colossal cure
Of mindless curse which my lips allure
The beast of mutation scans the sky
For lifeless glow that reflects the lie
Do not be deceived by the skin you see
You are under the spell just like me
We are painted illusions of metaphysical lava
Wielded by forces that usher us to a coma
Let the rain carry us downward
Where angels await to hand the reward
Toying and hiding from breaking grounds
What sets us apart is in liquid bounds
Shedding these golden fleece
For decaying, commemorative inner peace
The empty moon of wisdom divine
Stretches the joy of a mystic shrine
Entrancing moans have filled my dreams
You appear before my eyes, so it may seem
My mistress of truth, as the stars bow down,
Embraces and kisses my thorny crown
Your silence is a tremor that gnaws my thoughts
The mystery tickles me as everything rots
I am under a harlot’s skin
Yet I believe this is no sin
I smoke and sip on your insignificant death
To see and feel everything you possess
Nowhere But Up
I can’t breathe as I cling upon your arms
Blood flows out from my body like waves of the ocean
Crawling desperately for survival, I saw nothing,
This darkness consumed me
I wept my heart out to heedless ears
Everything disregarded
A flux, like day turned into night
You have answered with a dagger-like smile
My bleeding became a playground to your stabs
Numbing my veins, emotions transformed to stone
My eyes are weary as I spiral down
But I am no stranger to descent
I hear your laughter as I silently drown in my blood
Do you feel my pain? Can you taste it?
Bitterness tasted like honey in your tongue
Swallow it all down
Choking on my last words
Breathing out my lost cries
A symphony to your heart
A treasure worth keeping
Celebrate my lifelessness
A precious gem to your crown
A colorless rainbow appeared
And ebony is all there is
Rain fell upon me like acid
While I watched you spit on my grave,
Drink my remains and inhale my ashes
My soul stripped and torn to pieces
Now I can’t cry, I can’t hear and feel
Your compassion burned my whole shell to ruins
I am banished into obscurity
And dwell at the doors of nowhere
Intangible from your execration
I am relishing this magical moment
Seclusion is my hero
Hallowed be my cage
Nowhere But Up
Alone fighting my darkest hours,
For far too long, this seemed forever
Too blind to see my reality once more
I want to feel the rain run through my face
And taste something besides my tears
The universe comes crushing down on me
Sealed my lips with fear
I’m standing on nothing, inviting myself to breathe
For how long must I endure
This emptiness is deserting all my hopes
My mutual loathing drives the world
For I dream of pain and embrace my sorrow
Close my eyes and spread out my wings
My hands are bound when I saw a shadow
She was dressed in white unchained my hands
Wounded the demon that’s lurking inside my head
My soul went so high
I gasped for air and believed I would die
She was a mystery
As I lifted my head to see her face, I found you
You became my very wall
You are the air that I feel and breathe
You broke me out of hades’ arms
Taught me to take breaths again
Lifted me up when I’m forever down
Broke the cage where I am bound
Lit a candle so I can see
An embodied hope is always with me
Forever into your eyes, I must see
With your eyes I must look through
A window widened by stars
A realm with an enchanting caress
Nowhere But Up